Thursday, June 09, 2005

Thank you.

to everyone who prayed for me.
to everyone who messaged me.
to hozzy who was there in person.
to jeanette and pye who called me all the way from the states.
to enai for just listening to me cry across the atlantic (or pacific?) ocean.
to pye who really surprised and blessed me.

i failed my driving test.

felt absolutely crappy. veryveryveryveryvery frustrated. to try and fail and try and fail and try and fail. i have never felt so defeated before. but so much easier to get over this time because of the many people who showed me they cared. i don't want to think about it, talk about it anymore. But i really want to thank all these people who made a difference.

and i want to thank God, who is good.

for giving me friends who love me more than i deserve.
for giving me tears as a very efficient emotion-release system.
for comforting me when i retreat into the private world of pain where no one else can reach me. (eh, so drama.)
for a chance to try again.

posted by beckyboo @ 5:01 PM

4 Comments:

At 11:11 AM, Blogger lookingheavenward said...

You know what, you have a very good attitute - to keep trying and be undaunted by failure. It's so easy for people to give up after trying a couple of times, but no, you decided to try again and again and again cos you know that one day you CAN make it! One day, you WILL be able to do it! I like your spirit, it's a good fighting spirit. Cry a while, release your disappointment, it's natural to be sad. But after that, focus on the good and the positive. It's only when you have completely and totally give up trying altogether that you are deemed to have failed. But now you've not. It just takes a little bit more time to reach success, but it doesn't mean that you can't reach it! Yes I believe that one day YOU CAN MAKE IT too,like every one else who tried and failed and tried and failed but they finally succeeded and passed ONE DAY...

 
At 2:04 PM, Blogger lookingheavenward said...

Hey, even though I can't be with you physically, just want to give you a great big hug and tell you: it's ok, dear. I know how it feels, to try so hard and yet not get what you wanted. But dun be discouraged, I'm sure things will get better, alright? Giving you another of my real tight superhugs!! *HUG HUG HUGS* =)

 
At 12:59 AM, Blogger beckyboo said...

hey thanks =)
i'm feeling better now.
you, got practice your guitar anot!

 
At 1:39 PM, Blogger lookingheavenward said...

Yes I did, teacher. I practiced until my fingertips feel numbed... Oh, so painful... *sob sob* And on Friday, Shawn came over all the way from Tampinese to CCK just to give me a lesson... =P

 

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